Daily I feel like I move more and more into this next phase of my life.
Carrying this vision to really help others, and place people around FYF who can carry parts of it.
I'm no longer comfortable WHERE I was, and WHO I was...and I'm NOT where I am going. The vision is squeezing it's way into my room. The picture above is really the story.
I cleaned off this art desk, and made it a little office desk, and now it's a video hub spot where I sit and record video or Facetime life. I've had to move my Art Business over to the side, and push the art lights into place and allow them to create light...before that, my daughter used this space as her room. It's been the "catch all" room for art supplies and now I sit in it all the time...separating myself and being with the plans and purposes.
I'm NOT who I was OR where I was...Something so big is pulling me towards it. It reminds me of when God spoke to me to move to Atlanta. In that moment a call moved into me, and it changed everything from that exact moment ON. It was hard to get up and go to work every day when a large part of me had moved to Atlanta inside. I started to face my goodbyes to the way my life was in that moment. Goodbye to easy traffic to work, a great job, and my sailboat. It was a season of seeing what I was going to be giving up...I started to face I wouldn't live around the corner from my Mom any more. That my best friends would be 8 hrs away, once I made the move. I'd already moved in my heart...Oct 1987 I moved in my heart, April 1988 I literally moved to Atlanta. From the day God spoke til the day I loaded my car up and left, I was never, not ever, comfortable again.
Not one day was "ever the same" after that call arrived...I feel THAT today! NOT one thing is the same since I made the decision to take this thing up into the air! (TD Jakes has written an amazing book, "Soar" it's my guide) Not just a side hustle, coaching others, but a Network helping YOU help others. Coaching with a whole team. A booklet to get you started! A blogsite turned business. An LLC, and a checking account. Taking this call seriously while clinging to my day job, scared to death...
I've been here before...giving back or resigning or leaving behind the old, for the thing God makes clear. Yep, I've been here before and it's just as bad now as it was then. But OH WHAT I GET TO CARRY!!!!