11.28.17

Following my instincts and just going where I've never gone before.  My booklet sits across the room, I'm about to send copies out...Fear and insecurities rise, and surround me.  What if it's NOT good enough, what if it's NOT ENOUGH...

SO?

Fears swirl around about my thinking...and what if people don't like it or you and your message...

SO?

At the end of the day, God placed a vision and purpose in me, and I run with it, it's my story, my life changes, it's MINE and I'm finding that the Influence of my life and story, have changed so many other's lives.

SO?

So yea...I'm still getting ready to send out these booklets.  It's the next paragraph of my story..

A letter to my daughter

Dear Daughter, Here is another tip..When something RESONATES....like that gal from Freedom House...when SOMEONE resonates with you..FOLLOW that...FOLLOW THAT VOICE!!!  For me at this moment, TD Jakes has illuminated what I NEED TO DO NOW...right this NOW...and He speaks to exactly WHERE God has brought me to. I jump on that..I watch over and over, as I get ready to make the scariest steps I've ever made...I've got a freakin LLC ...that's plain SCARY...I've got a lot of helping hands and REAL followers...REAL PEOPLE following me, serving MY vision...that's scary.  TD Jakes speaks to that place in me, and He also speaks to those coming around me and He could speak to you and the talents and abilities you carry...matter a fact when you are ready to take them seriously HE WILL WATER THAT GROUND....

All your life, GOD is going to PULL YOU OUT and away from your friends...not to leave them but to keep you moving on your path with him.  You will find yourself seeking understanding around you and...you won't HAVE IT...BUT God will send encouragement through messages...He will FEED YOU THROUGH OTHERS...and comfort YOUR VISION through others...GOD brings comfort through others...and messages that nobody else will be saying!

So, yes my daughter I'm totally into "Soar" and TD Jakes words right now, because they are watering the very seed God placed in me...Find Your Food | Find Your Life | Live!

This is what is alive in me...  Jakes comforts it and calls it out all at once!

Give Back To Get

WRITE THE VISION DOWN

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BECOME WHAT YOU BELIEVE Matt 29:9

I'm always working the mission God has placed in me, out!  I work it out!

Today...

Today started last week when I some how got a copy of the Bishop TD Jakes /Stephen Furtick video.  It's about your talents, your vision, being an Entrepreneur and going for it!  In it there is a statement about "what will you give up, so you can get a hold of"...I was pacing in the church, the big empty room we worship in.  All alone quietly pacing and listening KNOWING full well this was a defining moment on this journey.

Pacing, Pacing, Pacing...listening...when I stopped.  "Give back your Wednesday".  Wednesday is my biggest work day of the week.  Give it back and work FYF...WHAT a scary deal!

It reminds me of when Keith was sensing to leave a company and go out on his own.  Oh how we paced, prayed and fasted. Until we knew.  Or the time we sensed to leave the church we came to plant.  Oh the agony and how we paced, prayed and fasted until we knew...Or when I felt called to go into the schools and sing..and they made a way...that one just happened TO ME and I kept showing up, scared to death!  I paced and prayed in the neighborhood until I WAS SURE...

It took all afternoon but I asked.  It took a few days to rearrange somethings and it's happened.  It starts THIS MORNING.

Yesterday I knew I was starting to feel a sore throat come on.  My head was off.  I was facing today with appointments starting at 7a.  I wrapped up in a blanket and simply whispered...."I just need a sign!  I need a sign to confirm this step"... I went to bed and woke at 5:10...not to an alarm but to a text message...

"I need your help" my teacher friend said.  "I'm being approached to start a group in my school.  It's time I start my LCHF group.  I need your help and I need materials"  I looked at the text.  On the first morning of FInd Your Food's first full day...this is how it starts.

Today at 11:30 a copy of the VERY booklet she needs will be PUT INTO MY HANDS...TODAY that need has already been on it's way to be met...

So, today is here.

"Where there is VISION, there is PROVISION"  TD Jakes

 

My creative side...

I'm a creative.  I live creating all day long all the time.  I consider and create thought and share it, by writing and creating Memes.  I create discussion on Facebook Live. I speak from creative thinking...and I paint.  I'm an artist.  

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Brene Brown has totally brought understanding to my artmaking.  She says, "Heroics is about putting our life on the line, ordinary courage is about putting our vulnerability on the line" I stumbled upon FEAR very early in my art practice.  In the beginning you go to the studio wherever that is and you JUST SHOW UP...there you face BLANK canvas everywhere and you are at this scary crossroads of making that artistic mark..I was just as BLANK AS MY CANVAS...But felt such a compulsion to paint.  

Stepping over fear and into an unknown flow is really a journey!  I've got years of quietly pursuing art that lies on the other side of my fears.