It was back! Hunger. I was struggling and over eating and hungry again much too soon. (I’d eaten out almost all week long. THERE WAS SOMETHING IN THAT FOOD!)
My mind was pummeled with food thoughts until I caved in and ate. WHERE HAD ALL MY SELF CONTROL GONE??? I was going through all my keto foods for the week, in a few short days I needed to go shopping again and was TOO TIRED TO DO IT.
Then it dawned on me, “Ive gotten into something that’s causing this problem.”
Sure enough, I’d eaten out numerous times for meetings or a get together, all in one week. I am a homebody and eating out is a real treat and a very rare event. There must have been things in each of those Keto-friendly meals that were additives or many even hidden sugars in a public restaurant? (No! never, they promised it was ok.)
Sure enough I was acting like a starving addict all over again. It was mind blowing to be back at my “SQUARE ONE".” All the craziness was back…different cause this time. Last time, if you will remember I was over indulging with sweeteners in my keto-legal treats that were meant for special occasions. Well, they’d become a daily occasion. Sweeteners in chewing gum, and diet drinks. It all added up to a huge HUNGER STORM. I was not used to being tossed around violently by this demanding hunger!
Consistent-Keto removes all the struggles with food for me.
So this place of complete struggle is not my norm. It takes me a while to realize I am struggling with real HUNGER again. The Keto mantra is, “eat when you are hungry, stop when you are full.” I was always hungry again! It was a daily struggle to not eat til lunch! My norm was gone, a distant memory in this storm. I was eating because I-was-HUNGRY! It reminded me of how I lived day to day 5 yrs ago. Always hungry, always eating no matter how full I was. Never satisfied. Always on the couch hurting physically and emotionally.
If you are just now coming out of food addictions and this crazy carb-controlled place my HEART goes out to you! If you have had a slip and you too are floundering in the storm, I want you to know you can come out of that place! My empathy and understanding has increased exponentially!!!
I have transitioned from the top to the bottom again. I’d like to tell you how.
#1 Admit you are in trouble (No shame in that! It’s always the first step.)
#2 Phone a friend, get around community. (No shame here either, so many of us really need each other.)
#3Know this, in a week’s time things can be calm. Give me ONE week! (Totally possible when in relationship with others.)
This is what I did. I called my two diet partners and shared with them where I had landed. I committed to clean food, tons of water and movement (to burn up the sugars in my body.). I got my food organized for the week. I set out on the course and called my DB’s (*diet buddies) if I struggled. I took extra walks to keep occupied. I had a back up of legal snacks if I couldn’t make it. it’s day 4 and I’m back to the quiet and peace.
Listen, I could not have done it without accountability. I would have faltered the first day. But the pain of where I was was worse than the pain of detox and restoring my routines!
I’m not pulling a ball and chain of hunger around. I’m not being controlled by the chemicals and sugars hidden in my restaurant outings.
I’m free to continue on my way.
If you are in this desperate place of being CHAINED TO HUNGER, I get it. I want you to know there is a way through this place. There is community at Find Your Food that would love to help you! We get it! There is ALSO A BETTER DAY awaiting you!