What if I had quit on my diet and myself?
I thought about that a lot this past Saturday as we rode mile after mile on the hottest day of the summer. A ride that started at 6am and ended at 6pm gave me a lot of time to ponder things.
As I rode along I became increasingly grateful for the opportunity. When our kids grow up we are often invited along into their lives and accomplishments, this was a ride I did not want to miss. If I had given up on my diet, I would not have been there. She would never have attempted that ride if I had quit my diet.
I remembered a million “No thanks” when you said, “Just this one bite.” I remembered times I cried in the bathroom while all my friends at BBQ and beer and danced the night away at a wedding reception and I sipped water and avoided everything else. I remember the times you ate something sweet right in front of me, and I smiled through it, holding on with all I had. I remember being all ALONE and hearing food call my name and going out and taking a walk. Anything but quit on my diet.
I am not like you, I have food problems and behaviors that led to obesity and such shame. I want to be free! I did not give up!
Diet bumps are gonna happen. Relapses into controlling foods are going to happen too. DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF OR YOUR DIET! Life is going to happen, the good, the bad and the ugly. DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOUR DIET OR YOURSELF!
Community keeps me in the game when I suffer setbacks. I have no choice but to rise up and reconnect and keep working it all out. I refuse to give up on myself! I refuse to give up on the food that I know fits me. I cannot un-see what I have found. So, I fight for it and for me!
If I had given up. There would be no 100 mi rides. There would be not Adapt Event coming to Atlanta looking me up. There’d be no support coming from me. No retreats and small groups. No workshops or going to Lowcarb USA. There’s be no community helping others. There’s be no quality to my life. There’s be NO LIVING, ONLY EXISTING.
As I rode along, in the heat and challenges I kept saying to myself, THANK GOD! Thank God I did NOT give up on myself or my diet! This past weekend I got to do something really great with my daughter, whom I adore. Thank God I did NOT quit on my diet or myself!