Something happened on April 2nd. I came to the conclusion I was way too wrapped up in food. Or maybe I should say EATING. EATING was how I coped.
There are two topics here: Food and Eating. My food is lowcarb/keto. It’s been my food for the last 4 plus years. My behavior goes from controlled to addicted.
Actually…my WEIGHT LOSS FOLLOWS MY BEHAVIOR MORE THAN THE FOOD I EAT.
When the food is keto my appetite is suppressed and my behavior is balanced with food. I eat when hungry, stop when full.
But I don’t simply EAT for nutrition intake. I eat when happy, I eat when stressed and I eat when bored.
When controlled food became controlling is when I started letting it fill my emotional need tank. THAT tank is BOTTOMLESS.
When I eat emotionally I don’t stop when full, I simply push past that natural boundary. Can you relate?
For two years weight has crept back up because of exciting times, opportunities and stress and I was eating my way through it all.
April 2nd I stepped on the scale. First time in 3 years. It was exactly what I was afraid of. I made a commitment to change that. I made a choice of my will to focus on my goal, not my disappointment in where I was. 20 days ago I made a new goal. 20lb weight loss by July 24th.
I’ve made a choice to focus on the goal. I’ve made a choice to NOT eat emotionally. I’ve made a choice to meet my emotional needs in other ways. It feels good. It feels like the good ol days!