This is what my cousin wrote about me:
Way to go my sweet Cuz! I think it's great that you are up on stage and so outward facing in helping others. I was thinking as I read this that the most authentic piece of your story is that you fell down. You had to lose the weight twice. You aren't just up there as another success story. The fact that you fell off and had to start all over is something that gives you such authority. You've been there, and you get it so much better than most people. People can relate to that. You aren't telling them you are perfect or this worked because I have iron willpower. You know the struggle. I applaud your honesty in telling it all, not just the prettied up success story.
Who throws away an 85lb weight loss? Me!
You know you're in trouble when:
#1 You say one thing and are PLOTTING another
#2 You start avoiding community
#3 You're cruising social media and posting counter-productive foodie posts.
I know the PAIN of failure with food
All the weight I'd lost in 2007 was back on me in 2014. Isolated, depressed and utterly full of shame I sat at a church Christmas party...Dying inside.
Right now your defensive thoughts are kicking in, and you think I'm talking to you...Because we might have passed each other in the hallway or at an event. You THINK i was looking at you...And I know, I know it's just a bite, and it's just the fact you had no time, and you are fine. You're better than I was, and you can handle old food choices that are now taking tiny steps back into your mainstream again!
I know where you are, and I'd avoid me too, matter a fact I avoided EVERYONE...while sugars and starches wrapped themselves back around me, and then my life. My whole life. (Most people say, I've struggled with food my whole life, when we begin coaching. Well it's about to happen again.)
I also know this one tiny little thing. YOU -ARE-SCARED!
Scared that you have lost control and food has it again. Scared you can't have your cake and eat it too. Scared we're all watching YOU...
Trust me, when I say I know. I know this place oh so well. I get it. I get you.
You can hide easier than you can get your control back and I know just how painful that feels for you. You've underestimated the power of the foods you've let back in. It's called denial and addicts struggle with this a good bit...
Trust me I know.