Nothing like a 3 night conference with all sorts of yummy foods to shake things up. This week I attended such a conference. Food trucks, friends gathering for a pre-party and on the last night an Ice Cream bar to negotiate followed by a post-party pizza party...oh yeah!
A vision separates us from others. We've learned to mask it, and avoid calling attention to it as we internally struggle with "being different". It can be painful to sit and watch others eat things that don't work for you. It's really hard to stay focused and not cave in...
It's taken me some time to pick up a water bottle or grab a can of seltzer and mingle. It's taken me some time to just be with others and accept I don't do what they do. The main reason is they appear to have control and I know I won't have control and what ever I eat and enjoy, soon I will be thinking about seconds and going back for more and maybe if it's good enough making it at home. While others probably have just gone on, that food has stopped me and i want more, so I don't engage in it. "Just this once" is never once for me.
Sugar does that to me as well as high carb foods. While you have one serving and go on, I don't I want MORE and I go looking for it, thinking about it and find myself in pursuit. It can be exhausting fight off food.
So, yes a vision for doing better separates me from the average people who have a different reaction to foods. My vision is to keep my control, by removing controlling foods! My vision is to have energy and vibrancy and help others, not get stuck and lost in food again.
I will cling to the water glass to keep what I've been given.
I simply carry myself differently. I've got this vision of being in control and having energy to support the mission and calling God has placed within me.